Wonderfully written, Arpad.

The experience felt like the best drug, didn't it? You were so elated that you wanted more and more and more of it.

I had something similar, though I saw light and felt a hug. It was exactly like you say - inside me, outside me, one with me, everywhere. It's so hard to explain. I've never had it again the same way, but I know that the door stays open :)